It's been quite a week! The chickens have come home to roost, and unlike my creativity, are already bearing fruit, er...eggs! We started with the seven rescue hens who moved Monday night from the generous foster home provided by our neighbors into the coop that has consumed our lives since late March. Tuesday evening, Linda purchased two more hens, at least 3 weeks older than the seven, and we suspect one of those two is responsible for the TWO medium eggs we've gathered this week. They'll be Sunday's breakfast. These hens weren't free range, or raised organically until now, so we know we're not talking primo eggs, but it's a start. I've posted more pictures here. Unfortunately, I'm not feeling nearly so productive.
Yesterday I got confirmation that an "essay" I wrote is going to be published. I've been published in this magazine before, but probably not for at least 9 years. It's exciting and I was profoundly honored to have the editor tell me how my piece affected her; it was high praise, and such validation for my lofty literary goals. A dear faraway friend congratulated me, read the proofed piece, and offered her assessment that I "practice what I preach." I should be brimming with excitement, motivation, determination. Words should be flowing from me like water tumbles down Kaaterskill Falls. Instead, every word it's taken me HOURS to write today has been dragged kicking and screaming through a crevice in the logjam blocking mind and soul. The words and thoughts and feelings are 'there'; I can feel them jammed up, can feel my self bulging and swelling from their weighty pressure as they yearn to pour out. But....nothing. It's 2:00 on a Friday afternoon, the marvelous gift of a Friday off already more vanished than not, with virtually nothing to show for itself.
Ah...except laundry. Laundry has become my saving grace, the thing that seems my only measure of productivity...it has a beginning, middle, end. I start with piles sorted in whatever way the mood strikes, and feel the deep satisfaction as each pile vanishes from the kitchen floor, rematerializing clean, soft and neatly hung, or folded and nestled, still warm from the dryer, into the cradle of a purple laundry basket. I seem able to control this small chore, able to see it through to completion, while words and thoughts never make it out of the rinse cycle. How is it possible that faced with a writer's small success and validation, I'm even less able to loosen that logjam? And appallingly, painfully mixing metaphors as well?!