Now, where did I leave that?

Monday, December 5, 2011

A Fond Farewell

Two years ago I started this blog. There were lots of reasons, one of them being a gentle way to dip my toe back into the creative waters, ease my way into writing again. While it may have accomplished that to some degree, it also became a fall back. When I would try to prod myself into committing any of my thousand thoughts onto paper, I'd simply point out I was writing...the blog. 
But as time passes, it's feeling far too much like an exercise in vanity and self-indulgence. Although I'm profoundly grateful to those who have taken the time to read, comment on and follow my blog, and each of you is a blessing, I really feel like I'm only writing for myself and a handul of people. In blogger world, having only 26 followers after two years, most following out of a sense of reciprocity rather than enjoyment and seldom commenting or interacting, seems to indicate a definite lack on my part. Whether it's lack of focus, lack of anything relevant to say, lack of skill, or all of the above or something else, the words in each blog entry echo in the silence, and that echo is telling me to redirect my writing to something more focused and substantive. I can't use a lonely little blog to fulfill the imperative to write anymore.

And all who have shared this time and space with me, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I've enjoyed this, and you.

Blessed Be.


Debra She Who Seeks said...

Vanity and self-indulgence are what blogging is all about! At least they work for me, LOL! Farewell and keep writing!

Michaele said...

Well, sorry to hear that, as I am a newer follower. I blogged for a good six months with just a couple followers and very seldom even one comment. I was doing it kind of in lieu of scrapbooking and/or journaling I guess. But I enjoyed it. It was great to get more followers and to learn how to keep them, but I still do it for me. I hope there is a way you can let us know what you are writing. I wish the best for you.

Wendy said...

I just found you - by way of Sage Woman. I just finished reading your article on Weaving the Web and wanted to check you out. I like your article. Your writings reflect what I intuit as a deep well of inner wisdom and I thank you for sharing.

I have been blogging for about 3 or 4 years and have felt much as you do. That blogging is becoming my excuse for not writing anything substantial. Oh, it's fun and I've made some good blogging buddies and processed many emotions, but I blog less and less as time goes on.

I'm not ready to give it up yet. For me blogging has become my social life - at least for now.

Anyway, all that to say - I hear you. And understand.
Life is about change and when it's time, it's time.
Blessed be

Re•Purpose Eclectic said...

I just saw this! December was such a whirlwind for me and I wasn't on facebook much (which is usually how I find out you've posted) glad you didn't end the blog. I love your writing's beautiful and poetic.